The Alien Invasions of a Paranoid Android

Thursday, June 12, 2008

AUGUST

JAREDDDDDDDDDDD LETOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Friday, May 09, 2008

"the act itself is more painful than anything else"

You know you've got something blog-worthey when people start commenting invisibly.
so, something most odd happened just now.

I made a 17-year-old boy CRY.

i know. :O right?

maybe not, for some of you heartbreakers *tsk tsk* but it came so naturally.
it wasn't something mean i said, or something horrible i did. rather it was completely the opposite.

anyways, it wasn't plain tears and fury. it was real sobbing, in front of his peers.
i kinda feel sorry for him, but not more than how bewildered i am. let me remind you, that i was being completely out of character. in a nutshell, i blame my hot pants. my hot pants are so irresistible.

now that im here, (after a REAL long time, i must say) i have to type what i've been meaning to say out here all week and more.

someone's stop calling. because of some lame-ass reason unknown, but if it's because of a loser inD***N friend with UEFA tix or wtv, then, yeah, it's such a taboo. i miissssss my sisterrrr :(:(:(

been binge eating. realized sth abt myself. ive expanded my stomach capacity, if that's even possible. i crave one fattening lump of tiramisu after another. and my sweet tooth isnt helping either. plus all the proving to miss-flat-face. my willpower is leaving much to be desired, and since i can't help myself with the A word, let's mouth it off to the B-side.

other than that,
life's been good. thank you life for behaving yourself.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Oracular Spectacular

i'm still very confused. bloggers are such exhibitionists. :D
what is there to say? except i'm surrounded by mongoloids. which is fine, until i'm reminded about how it gets annoying sometimes. ahh. the reasons to believe i am one too. heh.

i just found out that it is true, that if you sleep after you eat, you gain weight. my gawd. that's my routinal eating habit that's driving me crazy. THAT, and finishing a whole TUBE of oreos in 3 minutes. {oh, you can't blame me. they taste so good with cow}

prolly still reeling over the nightmare and trauma of the ongoing madness, SY reminded me, or actually shoved it down my throat, that less than a month from now, a bigger one awaits.
which sucks, i guess.

?

anyways, this is me trying to be as upbeat as possible, after what M and D pulled left me so s******l. what disappoints me is the actions (or lack there of) that S feels no remorse over. i think this is me cutting the umbilical cord of off kannan. lol. which is another subject altogether, but you get the point.

helping plan a "sweet" 16 makes me feel that the whole thing is SO overated. c'mon, it's just a way for the loaded to keep the outflow of $$$ going, and honestly, it's pretty damn awesome. "sweet" sixteens are just there to remind you that life's not sweet before, during or after the dates. and helping save the dreams and high expectations of a particular person i feel nothing for as of now (but feel free to be sure, i will start throwing words like despise all over in a few hours)reminds me that, hey! shit happens!

nothings worse than being ditched on your birthday rite? that's exactly what xh got. which IS SO BAD, you "friends"! which left me, to try and salvage it. i kinda did. and i'm happy. although not very, what with all the fondue ingested. but still, although i do not believe in the notion of "friends", it is so not humanly to ditch what you call a friend coz, after all, isn't it what man do? man fabricate, man fake. so to all the last-minute salvagers, which amounts to 3, there are only 3 ppl who truly cares for the girl. she needs no sympathy from me, and i don't feel any for her, but since it's already so long gone, why don't i just call it a post.

nite, darlings.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Be low-key.

that's what i got. and i know, sometimes, i wonder. what have i become? what am i becoming? the things that i do, the things that i say. the shameless things that i regret a moment too late. when it's already done.

and for what?

many reasons, i think. just maybe one that comes to mind. to prove him wrong. and to prove myself right. whatever it is. i'm beginning to wonder. IS IT ALL WORTH IT, in the end?
looking at how things are, it should be for the worse.

but, i'm so inclined, that sub-consciously, i do it, and then later, i live to be so sick of it. i want it to stop, but somehow the will will not. my headaches from lack of sleep. and my inner intervention deprived of any real attention.

speaking from my another's point of view, what could possibly be wrong? she's just another, so typical. given, it is not easy to live. but it is harder to live with expectations set firmly on your shoulders and although sometimes, you just wanna shrug it off, you stop and realize. hey, wait! who are you hurting?

the little fling has left an empty shell out of me. so i suppose, he's succeeded.

just, how hard is it to die?
not very.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Can't get the stink off, he's been hanging round for days.

This is one of those days when I'm actually proud of my doings. Okay, not completely but almost, quite there. I know, I've been trying to stock up on my karma points but today, i'm especially happy coz this is the only day i've woken up from a night that i can actually fall asleep before 12. dad's still around, so i guess it's pretty early to say anything. not like it matters, he leaves at 12 sumtimes.

so, he did it. he did that guilt trip thing. YOU SEE WHY I GOTTA STOCK UP ON KARMA POINTS NOW???! im in total need of good vibrations. as if talking nonsense was not enough, he gotta go brag it to the entire population of people who have nothing much to do but treat gossip like cancer. rite, it's not like i did anything wrong, except talk to the piece of garbage. (come to think of it, WHY in the world did i even think twice to talking to garbage. sheesh. wait, this might minus off my good karma because well, it's not good to call anyone garbage_ even if it's a really reallly gigantic pile of it.)

ANYWAY, justie to anyone who did the stick justice. but she's going oh-too-far? and to think that im more worried about what it can do to ME. than what it can do to her, i think i finally have some sorta revelation. i mean, OMG. i so self-centered. When ppl tell me that, i dun actually stop and think abt it but, now im starting to feel like maybe VansDeprawTee was right. anw, i hope she goes back to bingeing at the realisation of she's being SUCH A PAIN to everyone around her. including the old woman. and duh, me. but not like she minds, rite. the more pain she inflicts on me, the better. and i don't really mind that. because, darling, it goes the same the other way.

Matt and Andrew needs to DIE off in a playground accident. GAWD. it's hard to think that they're actually brothers. they're so OMG-different! haha.. but they drive each other insane (matt does it with more success) XD one thing in common tho: they wish to kick the fake-ass who's been Liutenant Annoyance to me. so sweet kan?

speaking of fake-asses, i bet his butt is rotting away with the fakeness and inoriginality that one can get from 6,000 TVB dramas combined together. how pathetic.
next up, who i wonder? the poorest soul.
an ugly, dark, FAT reconciliation, perhaps?

"Dont get my sympathy hanging out the 15th floor.
You've changed the locks 3 times,
He still comes reeling through the door.
And soon hell get to you,
Teach you how to get to the purest hell."

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

WuHa!

Omg. OMG! Ive forgotten about you. It's already how many days into the new year? and im still here. That's weird. I want my holidays back.
:(
So, if you really need to know, i've been sulking a lot lately. and it's beginning to show its consequences. Just like the comments earlier this evening. blah blah.. She said I'm a feminist writer and have a very romantic style. i can do melodramatic (ie-morbid) and i SUCK in stating facts. like c'mon. that's not true. it was just the stupid joshua kid last year that led me to write "country rat". stewpid kid.
ooh. and being so friendly with a person making plans to vacay in Paris for summer is SUCH agud idea. and play on the fact that you're beat, and ppl will leave you to speak in your weird hokkien, from an indian mouth. i LURVE u.

Speaking of infat junkie, i finally got my Riot! ! and it's so so so awesome. not really so so so awesome, but awesome as itself. it's been a long time since i bought a record and truly get excited over it, and don't regret it the mo it changes hANS.

kadil amamd JK won't talk to me, what a towel.

if you're mad, im even madder.

I picked you out
Of a crowd and talked to you.
Said I liked your shoes,
You said, "Thanks, Can I follow you?"

goodnite. pls help me sleep tonight. i gotta digest all those cornflakes flaking my throat, at 10.30pm.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Cheese sticks outta wheat

im screwed. im really really screwed. A called. M's back. if he found out half the things i did while he was away meeting thom yorke, i would be dead. knowing the mouths, it should be about time he knew. i dunno. it's just really weird. having M to think abt now. the whole scenario with the-- i can't even talk about (im far too ashamed with myself.) -- anyway, i hope it's gone now. it's really gross. i can't even bring myself to even THINK abt it. i think ive finally did that one STEWPID thing. i mean other than the whole incident with shoplifting at Jusco. so i think i'll just wait, until they're both REALLY home, and then i can go back to my insane butterflies-in-the-stomach state. im not too fond of it. it's just, how far did i go? Waaaayyy too far.

Be careful what you wish for, my fellow earthlings. be careful. it may just NOT come true.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Fade into another

Please forgive me, for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive me for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love.

Monday, November 26, 2007

does your chewing gum lose it's flavor on the beadpost overnight?

I'm begining to feel like a restless limp. Maybe it's the extreme heat someone's been putting on me lately. I know it's probably peeling off my nose right now but it's really unbelievable. The narcotics-laden milk doesnt help either.
It's strange. Polly has this whole fan club. and what she does is merely proclaiming her extreme disgust over her bleak motions in the world. which the worshippers found "rather cute" oh! i adore her.
One thing for sure though, people are sick of this. and i know it. right now, I am simply crazy over Lux Aeterna, but i was crazier a few weeks ago. when the jared leto was amputated.it was creeeepy. and for that, it did not make my day at Jeanette's. she thinks it's mandarin. and im a complete idiot. i shud've just wrote abt a typical horror or sth.

Mickey and I are still trying to form an army to go to Mrs F's thingie. It should be a professional old people thing. so we r pretty un-nervous. i really should get to the curve's flea soon. it looks like business is SLOW. my god, i tot ppl liked garbage. no one seems to be buying it though. the slogan i mean. and maybe also the literal meaning. I would buy it all if i could, but it's been kinda tough. just the other day i gave in to temptation and spent another 600 bucks. which sucks. now that my dad wont give me any $$$ because apparently i am "not in control of my spending" what bollocks. my sister is going to see hugh grant next year. which also sucks. now that we are talking bollocks now. anyway, dad made this half-humourous comment. something like "my daughters are racing to see who can spend more money" haha.. coz he got this statement frm the sister's credit card and it was like "omg, she spent 2000 in 1 day" so, i guess. maybe im trailing. maybe i shud order that karen millen dress ive been swooning abt for days now! Lmao

tomoro when i ask for bucks, he's gonna give it to me. just like the other time.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Gifts from Luna Harbouring.

SO, i had spent the entire day getting the lens outta the line, and then i decided 2 let mom fix it. turns out, she broke the string entirely. which meant only one thing. she's a tikus. and so, i had to go on wif my little trip to bangsar without my eyes. after an oh-so-lovely sleep on the comfy master while the air-cond ppl stared at my (very!) flat butt. (according to my very trustee: mother.) sigh. what will i do for a j.Lo butt. i mean, i dun want humongous. i just want ass. i have none. nada.

anyhoo, after the dreamiest of all afternoon sleeps. (i call them sleeps because they last until dinner and it's getting freakishly consistent) bangsar was alternately dark and blurry. becausee i have lyk very bad eyesight. so everythings a blur without specties. and then when i feel lyk it's too blurry (i have no idea wat im saying but there you go) i put on my sunnies. which is a lot better.

and i sat my butt down amidst the jose and the alex and the john & a very bratty jonathan, while i squint my way thru mom's second gucci specties. she has lyk lou fah stuff going on in there too so it was real pening kepala wearing it. neways, it was all right until i was given the news that my aunt has bestowed upon me a new handphone- amount was too obscene to be told.

and the reason for the gift? she had too much money and suddenly felt like going bak to the gud old days when she would take me and Carol shopping at twinkies. Lol. i mean, a day in the life of a rich lady. cant be tat bad.
then after dinner, after having to have my dinner in my sunglasses, i decided it was time.

to go and fix that effing line.

and so i did. and in the car, i was trying to scoop money outta mom's wallet by delibrately "forgetting" my wallet. of course. and then i went up, in all the coolness of the mall and walked as if i had a blue eye underneath. i figured, wat the heck? u noe. and then all the stares. i knew wat was going on in their minds. lalalalala. and thn going down the elevator, i finally realised tat, hey. i wont bang into other ppl. it isnt tat bad, i can still see sillouettes of ppl coming my way. and yes, the look on their faces as they walk towards me and when we pass each other, i can also, unfortunately, see them turning back to have a glance. see if they can catch the black eye. wtv. and so i made it 2 the place. the old man was there. around this time i sat down quietly there and texted Andrew LW. i said u noe maybe im being all paranoid and everything. they dun think im a freaking weirdo, walking so fast, looking like a shop-lifter in motion. (which is another story altogether btw. i have yet to talk abt my "escapades" which were so convincing i swear i just might take it up as a profession.) yeah, so he replied by saying. oh u're so gorgeous, that's y ppl wanna look at u. XD he's one of those glass-half-full kinda ppl.

and then in came the dude who's lyk the nephew of my neighour who works there or sth. and then, surprisingly without my eyes, i saw him and reflex motion was to wave. and i waved. he came in (probably frm a ciggie break) and sat lyk rite across me, i was still texting and he took out his hp and started to play mario. LMAO. and then he started asking a buch of questions lyk how old am i nw and all that crap. i answered and looked up, him being inches away, i could see him smile. OMGoodness. eek. not gud up close. nonono. and then when the old man was done, yes he was doing it all in the backgrnd the entire time, i asked if i needed 2 pay. i didnt!

so, i went to get ice cream. yes, and i immediately went for mint choc chip. and the dude totally lost his mind or sth. he's probably sum part time worker in need of sth else other than ice cream. coz i ordered mint choc chip and he gave me sum chocolate damn sweet flavour. which wasnt sucky but it was lyk this GIGANTIC scoop. yeah, i admit i did a lil bit of my magic and asked him 2 give me a bigger scoop. and he was all okay. and then he smirked a lil. which was all cool until he presented me this (another word for GIGANTIC) blop of ice cream on this relatively TINY cone.

of course.

there's a reason why i NEVER eat ice creams outta cones. it's coz i hate it. i like licking my ice cream slowly. i take ages to finish so it ends up dripping lyk crazy. and the scoop was again, GIGANTIC.
when i told him, he was lyk im so sorry! wif a look on his face lyk i was gonna sue him or sth. it was hilarious. i decided 2 cut him sum slack and took the cone wif the omgosh so sweet! BROWN ice cream. and when i paid him and everything he reali looked lyk he was gonna cry. poor kid. i started sucking on the choc icream and walked my way 2 the old wing and on my way, ppl were staring lyk crazy. and i got so freaked, i started texting A. LW wif my left hand while i held the MONTROSITY wif my right had. surprisingly, it didnt drip tat fast. i just keep sucking on it. and then licking it ocasionally. Then i noticed the typical bored husband sitting near the escalator. i innocently licked the almond out of it sort of provocatively and it was really crazy. i laughed so much it was lyk impossible for me to disguise anymore. if only the kid at brobbins listened properly before scooping into the cone.. he probably was so sick and tired of staring at ice cream all day. and then in came me, all leggy and fabulous, asking for mint choc chip. LMAO.

anw, safe for one teeny bit of the cone tat fell (in frnt of a givenchy counter, no less), it was pretty tidy icream eating, i can say. it was just omgosh so sweet.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

sucker love is heaven sent, sucker love is known to swing

In all my fifteen (and some months) years of life, I have not met a single other person as annoying and charming as this dude right here. he is unbelievably irrational. but if you think about it, who is, right? BUT, he is downright unfunnily candid that you sometimes wanna kick him in the stomach. or poke him in the eye. what saves us from them bloody acts is of course, his punchline. no kidding.

and so, it will happen to everyone. the day you turn seventeen. don't you think about feeling sad, coz after all. even if you're still stuck in the middle of those "age limits" that a group of wrinkly bearded jury of the 14th century bestowed upon us, you are now legally old enough to sniff glue! (yipee?)

For those who love the smell of marker and raw petroleum, here's another weird thing. there is no age limit for that kinda elusive craziness. hang on, i'm jumping out of topic. Anyhoo, today's the demise of the sixteen-year-old Denice, as he welcomes a new era of stupid. and elevates crazy to a whole new other dimension. (of stupid) and i really mean stupid!

here's to the promised un-stability, and to many more insults to the "bloody name that my parents gave me to punish me of past sins".

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Marry ME, Matthew Bellamy!

K, i don't wanna turn into those people who create all those weird weblogs about their "OMG! OMG! sex god" since they're no.1 fan's been found anyways. She's got a shrine completely dedicated to them and has tattoos on both her breasts which says, well, YOU'll know. Anyway, the WAY he plays them piano & guitar i just wanna go up and tie him to the invisible red knot lint I have trailing along with me now. Shit. I'm not making any sense again.

and so begins the rambling of a super-hyped girl. fan. whatever you call it. SHIT!

If my babies could have his hands man, omG.
and those legs that fit perfectly in those pants!
and maybe MORE of those hair.
plus tha thing tht comes outta his mouth which makes boys and girls alike swoon. (well maybe not the Brits- they sure like the italianos.)

i'm in deep shit now, aren't I?

i can still remember listening to the first riff of the first song i heard from them. that was like years ago, and it was like infectious n all that. oh, i really have to stop. this is so eek. I'm sounding like those ppl who reads HP fanfics. which is really really gross.

you know who you are. so don't try ta hide! XD

i'm a freaking mess. mom hates it that i don't go to skool 'all the time' which is NOT true. i've been doing a lot of erm, what do you call this thing that's been hanging around for days. hmm maybe POST-ms?

that's gonna be real difficult to look at. ME, and my Pre-MS, my Post-ms and my during-MS. i might as well be on the f-ing moon!

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Hey, Jude.

"Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup"

Nobody says it better than John Lennon.

Yes, they slither while they pass, & they slip away across the universe.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Sing us a song, you're the piano man

The world is a little brighter when you know DJ groupies. especially those who know Paul Van Dyk(!!!) ahh...

while the world is looking for another reason to conspire, klaxons! are winning. they deserve it, no? surely. after all, what do i know. rite?
I couldnt find for a better reason to start talking about, ur hurm, the lil annoying brat called M, who MET the BECKETTS!

towel.

hmmph! how anyone can forget, i wouldnt know. but! it is all made up for with a cute lil TBS tee. which hardly counts for anything, but I'm feeling a lil nice. all this stuff in my lil shit brain has gotta come out, or so the monk says. yes, ive been following the teachings a little bit. every weeknight for a week during the hols. which i think is the best thing all month.

despite the sluuggish days im trying to forgive myself for, but failed terribly, im determined to make up for it. and have managed to at least keep it up a lil. what horrible nonsense, but it works.
I think people are starting to appreciate them even more. Good for those people. They are brilliant. I'm gonna master it, no matter how shittay(!) i am.

The doctor is surely keeping me on my knees, i've disobeyed her orders yet again. I don't think i can live with them being frustrated, nor can I live at all, to come around and think about it.

See, if I'm still asphyxiating on the carelessness of a lemon, i might gag at the sight of him spitting his cud.

not a great sight, i assure you.

neways, till i find a total useless excuse to come here with nothing at all,
i shall kick the ice maker in its absolute steel
or maybe just wrestle the lil' lizard of a pest in my bathroome.

... yeah, till then!
wish them all the R&R they need for OxJam

Currently Listening :
Gourmandises
by Alizée
Release Date: By March 13, 2001

OMG. Pavarotti DIED?!!

WHAT?!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

And maybe some faith would do me good...?

the trajesty! how anyone could overlook the fact that he's so damn gimmicky i wouldn't know, but for sure, someone would know right? probably the apple pie then. XD

Blaqk Audio is in deep shit. no offence, dave but it REALLY, really suck. it probably sound like GOOD gym music at its best. but then ah! lowish ratings may blur it, so. it's up to US! Go on and say whatever you want, but it should be soon. I hope! ;/

so, here i am, all to myself. mom off in taipei. dad nomad. i should be reading abt sum parameswara shit. but i really wanna just kick sum plath ass, so here i am again. long time no see, huh?

im sensing all this stints to be quite the norm, so does shirley manson, who is on HIATUS btw! shit's yours. take it.

my dear maxie is the handsome-st rotweiler ever.
he did try to bite me, but that's a different story altogether.

but, really, all these idling's doing NOTHING for me. i started 2 even absently take a pair of scissors and slice my toe. yes. with all the dramatic blood gushing. too bad i don't have it on video. it would be the top rated comedy on YouTube. it hurts like hell now, though.

up until that stewpid toe slicing incident, i had been really grateful wearing flip-flops but oh no! so sneakers it is, now. or no walking at all. how wonderful.

stupid toe.

Currently Listening:
The Reminder
by Feist
Release Date: April 23, 2007

Monday, July 30, 2007

What wasted unconditional love!

on somebody who doesn't believe in the stuff...
oh, well.

What have we been up to? ahh. a little moaning, a little pestering and off we go! to Esplanade's. No. we do not support them radio tunes. SINGfest shall be given the miss. to be honest, i didnt evn know. but hmm. i shall THINK for william beckett's gonna be there. thx Mimsy for the cue. I did join the petition for TAI to come into this region, but alas. it is not up 2 me. how u wish it was, isnt it. imagine all the extermination!

Mr. Smith, you're landing precisely 2moro. which is why. you're gonna mourn my abscence. down. Ppl r gonna need more than reverend al sharpton. seriously. but who else? than the surrogate cow herself.

Poor Ms Winehouse. Just a few years ago, being a virtual unknown in the angels and airwaves were so great. now she's sharing limelights with urgh. that's the price anyways. Gits.

I havent been studying. ahh.. ppl r just gonna say im lying. y do i lie? i dun lie abt that.. im a confessed pathological, but never in the subject of this. how i wish i WERE tho. it would all just fall into place.
Him em or me? Love Metal? eek. but whoa! acoustic's uneasy listening. the beauty.

Should i shoot the runner? or the devil and gods are raging inside me?
my sister is turning purple.
i can't hardly wait.

Who needs peace? when we've got apples. foam apples.

Currently Listening :
Stars on the Wall
by The Go Find
Release Date : By 20 March 2007

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

The Importance of Being Idle.

Whoa. She's powerful. Look at what cheeks and waves will have to do now.

Anyway, there's absolutely no reason why I haven' been updating this stewpid little thing. BUT. should i say, i have been lazy? No. not really. should i blame my good-for-surprises sister who CAME home (!!!) bearing [read: GIFTS!!] okay. she got mom some georgio armani pumps which were GORGEous and i got some (hmmph) givenchy. the pastas were delicious. it had some sorta spinach thing to it and very vegan too. hah. chocolates.

and so i happen to finally get my haircut and surprise, surprise i get my dead cells trimmed by an AhBeng again. darn.

XD probably im Exaggerating. coz he's the least ahbeng-ish dude compared 2 the rest of green box visiting dudes at times square. haha. yeah. so we brought the (eek) ppl who wanted to 'style their hair' (i say go to hell) 2 bangsar village the second and A Cut Above smelled lyk urm, shampoo. but despite all that, i got my reverse mohawk and of course, surprisingly i had OH look: FUN. XD it was good times. i don't think i have ever felt so satisfied with the evillish deeds commited that day. and what's more the stylist was cute. and we bonded over talks of OMGosh! amino acids and ur hurm, vacations in chlorine water. oh. and i had the most scrumptious panna cotta ever. alexis was too far away, and i wasnt in the mood 2 walk, u see. I am pardoned.

OH. and yes. i have been a pain to virtually everyone on the face of this planet with my ever-so-excited talks of *********The Cure**********

I need 2 go see the cure happen. and oh, where is it again? where else, other than the stupid little place called the Kiasuland. Pfft. shels said road trips down there are getting freakishly consistent. to which i solemnly agreed and screamed over. what is so great, after all, their gonna end up lyk the scorpians someday, playing unknown gigs, desperate for ppl to come. well, for 1, their NOT gonna end up lyk them scorpoians becoz. for one. Robert Smith & Co. are the okay. they're not as legendary as say, The Bowie but at least their way up there with Noel and Liam. okay, probably not so much of Liam but still. No chance in hell am i gonna EVER let TBSunday come to our mainstream radio. haha. butt looking at how things are going, adam's most probably going to. DArn.

And why am i so dead? dad is really mad at me coz of the recent result which was SHITTY and MY sister spent a 500-over thing on curls at A Cut Above. ok. i just had a little bit of trimming and a whole hour-and-a-half of swooning + the davey-like dude massaging my scalp so i guess it was well worth it. except. it was kinda weird AFTER that coz i mean. with all the things happening at the central home. and we darent say anything else. Aww. down.

Fred is going crazy coz i "won't!" come on thurs nites and i am "slipping tremendously" oh yeah. why don't you mean the effing school too. dad is getting more and more impatient. my allowance is reduced from daily to weekly. dammit. i used 2 gt 50 a day. now i get a mere.... AH. it's too vulgar. and fred should understand tat thurs nites im accustomed 2 family dinners that last all the way up 2 ten because i CANNOT cook. Luciano should ive me some pointers. sighs. how i wish. stay-at home maids. stay-at home chefs? no way. I'm better than fine.

No, I don't believe in the wasting of time

But I don't believe that I'm wasting mine

Currently Reading:
Girl, Interrupted
by Susanna Kaysen

Thursday, May 17, 2007

When the heart guides the hands: heart-shaped glasses

I agree with the world (Hah! i see you smirking, muttering"for once" under your breath. Don't think i didnt see that, you.) when they say LinkinPark no longer owns the gem. Oh, man. Im so sorry for saying this but Chester? stick 2 nu-metal please. like it or not. THis record is nothing lyk the last. Hell, even GoodMorning Revival is (gasp!) better.

Ah. the REAL musical genius. MM is the Man. What's an MM vid without the controversial. The thing that hits me to the head is that Evan Rachel Wood is young enough for a cloned MM. which is kinda disgusting if you ask me. & wat else, Ms Wood's such a great actress.
perhaps it's a gud thing, so she doesnt fall into the trap called the "LiLo-Paris" where you're stuck in the mf-d pithole coz there's prejudice against you everywhere. FtR, Thirteen is still my in the list. You can relate to it so much, it just scares you. But there's just something abt MM that's soo... different. In many shots, he reminds me of Madonna & Bono. K. everyone reminds me of bono now. It's official, after What I've Done gave me the Chester bone.

neways, i had the ENTIRE afternoon 2 myself 2day but gues wat i did? definitely not studying of any kind. Mid-terms have already started and here i am doing NOTHING. ok fine, this is more sumting then staring at the ceiling but when im alone at home, i have no self-discipline. and the worst case of the PAIN IN THE CRACK is miss-shithole's yours.

Cream of the cream, tori.
I'm going to one of them reunions. OH, how i dread it.

Elliptical, ME? nah.

Currently Listening :
Given to the Rising
by Neurosis
Release Date: By 28 May 2007

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

at the end of my cul de sac....

davey havok's house is painted black.

NOFXNOFXNOFXNOFXNOFXNOFXNOFXNOFXNOFX

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY

Despite the fact that LA's greatest underground band is set to literally rock Ruumz in a few days and the fact that i am also set to be there, i am questioning something. wait. why's the bohemian rhapsody reminding me of weird al? darn. i respect freddie mercury more than anything else about queen but this is crazy. this is a classic.

anyways, i am GOING CRAZY! thinking about plans. and my fucking babble is going on and on. it's so frustrating. ppl wif KZ-ed minds. and i just dun wanna complain abt it bcuz then it would be so cliche'd and we dun want that now, do we? yes. and it's getting harder by the minute because every little scream just pains my chest. really. it has come to that point where im speechless. i just dunno what ive become. because ive always been speechless.

mackey sent me regards in the form of: tix! although ive been going on abt how their lil lousy pathetic showcase doesnt need another non-fanatic rambling on abt how incredibly bad they are, i think i might give them a run for their money. i have four passes 2 GCharlotte so it isnt that bad. the thing is. im not ready 2 con form so much to the ICC. eeks.

a few exchange of words l8r, we were gone. the president of the SPCA actually came. that's creepy.

till thurs nite,

CAN'T HARDLY WAIT!!

currently wallowing. no time to add this sect.

Friday, April 13, 2007

So what's it feel like to be a ghost? Are you up for this?

I just don't know what to do with myself..
Louder now, louder now!
You're the hardest button to button.

Current state: DRUNK, high
Current mood: lousy
Current song: The Rapture
Current fling: unknown

Im feeling so heavy. Vegan buns are making me gain that pounds i so painfully shed. i need to get a different thing 2 do when im bored. something other than eating. and get something else to do when im idiot-boxing.

AAhhh.. the words that ring. adrian called me last night and well, fred didnt let me go too. im terrified of manfred actually. what makes him a cool boss actually makes him scary. disturbing thoughts of being compressed in an elevator were passed into my sponge the whole of last night. it seems that they have to somehow get at me for not being there on thurs nite. yes, virgen showcase again.

it's that time of the year again. KP's & Mj's birthdays. hah. what's with birthdays that make them so celebratory? I for one hate my day. it's actually a morbid way of saying hey. you're old! you're clock's ticking. he's knocking!

im getting so tired "planning" this. it totally sucks. i mean, how original can a "surprise" be if you've done it last year? and the scary thought is that well maybe it would be a tradition. whatever happened to....

anw, i think this is getting old. but well, sighs. since im the payer for everythinger, it's kinda easy. i just need to go get tix 2moro & get a table. and make sure we can all have sex on the beach. oohhh..! yes!

ahahahahaa

ashton, why do you love me?

Currently Listening :
What's the Story Morning Glory?
by Oasis
Release date: By October 3rd, 1995

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

all dis running around.. just give me a pain that im used to

All that mental torture. I did the unthinkable. I let someone in.

besides the fact that it was the stupidest conversation ever, and despite it being full of bits and pieces which just make it sound incredibly stupid, AND the fact that my whole future at Lil Z will be completely ruined, AND just because Im not thinking straight out of worry and anxiety now, i don't make sense. Yes, despite all that, it isnt fair to say that it was something you share.

geez what other vow will you break now, the CoH's?

No, that isnt even the worst of it. Fred knows. GAWD knows how.

My life is over, all over again.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Eyelash Curlers & Butcher Knives (What's the Difference?)

Is there a reason to be so stoked about something at 2.45 a.m. at night?
why, YES! what else, if it's not something from mr jade & davey?
I KNOW. the faction might have heard of the news months ago. i'm just soso excited blaqkaudio's finally THERE. lols.

so, yeah, i figured i would blog abt it, since im still so awake. (one of those nights where it ends early) im currently working on another super-exciting project called: The St. Patrick's! yes. i'll be throwing a party where there will only be ppl of the green-eyed-monster kind. EVERYTHING. frm the polish to the cat food. (not like there will be any cat food.) it's so exciting!

right now, am reeling over J.Star in G.Charlotte's River video. i mean, the moment i see J.Star in all HIS pinkishness, i know that the video would stay on the cdown for at least 5 days. (it's not that difficult bcoz GCharlotte is not that un-big, you know.) but J.Star to represent the beautiful and ugly side of LA? tat's a decision made in heaven.

i now know why the river is their new single.

all of you are going to kill me for this but im going to say it. JStar, you should DIE. along with all your ego and "beauty". but then again, you ARE ocasionally my source of entertainment. (in that ridiculing way) i think im the only one among the sanes who is not an adoring fan of his.

"Masochism is a valuable job skill."
you said it yourself. so, die away, boyfriend thief, queen of the beautifuls, and mannequin. for all our sakes.

KatharineMcPhee is driving my brain into jared leto's band.her song is so unbelievably forgettable, yet her awful vocals (which do not at all suit the rhythm of the tune) are stuck in my cells all day. my dead cells (i.e. my hair) are on all ends. didnt noe dead cells could do that. but that's the magic of KatMcPheever..

btw, i cannot BELIEVE i forgot to mention about this. I'm going super-crazy just thinking bout it: the SXSW festival!! i cant believe it's HERE. and i CANNOT BELIEVE it's starting without me!!! clearly, im not going to be where tasha is right now & im not quite the believer.

sob a lil. brag a lil. screw a lil.

HxM

Currently Listening :
Lion the Girl
by Midnight Movies

Release Date: By 24 April 2007

Monday, March 12, 2007

Dysentry Gary ~ Playing the Angel Mode

GGG-goly Sandra! you've grown up really crazy. have i been to(o) denying of your love? have i been to untrusting?

Yes, i feel so much more in the mood now, after typing that list. So now, on to my rantings.

It has been at least 3 weeks since I let an ah-beng cut my dead cells (i.e.- my hair) No, my dead cells are not borthering me. but it's the ah-beng part that scares me now.

Despite what's currently going on in MY WORLD of cell by stephen king (the part where clay sees a business MAN chew off a dog's ear) i am freaked out, instead by those Japanese dolls i have lying around in my living room. AND the intensity of denice's voice when he tells me that my whole world will actually come crashing. He's still recovering from the freak accident i guess... his screws are loose.

The debate over Good Morning Revival is of no purpose, really. If anyone thinks a few publicity stunts over TRL would cut it, well probably just to the mainstream makeup 8 year olds. Good Charlotte is slipping. seriously. anybody who had thought that they were of any good OR that GMRevival was goin to be good, is just plain well ignorant/weak. ignorant because there are far better music produced in this world. weak because they cannot hold up against the gimmick in the disguise of a video full of upskirts and stupid exploitations.

another slipping is of course the once icon of teen-rebelness, Avril Lavigne. in between her last album UnderMySkin & TheBestDamnThing, due out in April this year, she had gotten married and if her new record is anywhere near the "fast, fun, young, bratty, aggressive, confident, cocky in a playful way...all the good stuff", it better be of good quality. It's still quite unfair to be commenting, especially since the album's not out in the masses yet, so i won't be commenting any further.

That day at Starbucks, Borders was awesome. i ended up with 9 books and thanks to the citibank credit card, i got like 15% discount for every book. total: 300 bucks. smuggled a little tank frm cult & CDs again, for what else am i good for? Lols.

For this day that I'm thankful for. as for this day i nearly got caught for shoplifting.

Of course, i did my magic and the security guard actually said thank you and escorted me out. i'm amazing, i know.

Asian Beat night was what i can only describe as: nothing short of mediocre. wished davey was there. & 11 March, the day i got my fever. first fever of '07! went on anyway with wes borland. autograph session at yamaha's in the ARC. he was with asian beat last night. performed and had a talk at royale bintang before the session.

anyone wondering, he's the guy with limp bizkit. former guitarist. ring a bell? i KNOW, that's so KL! i TRULY h8 this place.

i got a present from my neighbour the other day. wrapped in a fancy blue wrapper, i was cursing them. yes, curse the ones who give u THE present. i hate the MOM. i.e. the nut. OR the hazel. she has a nice name, yes. but she does not make my list of the tolerable ppl. no, she goes to the list of ppl that i CANNOT stand but have to anyways because they're "nice".

so, now im a proud owner of an autographed copy of Vegemania! it's such a cool book, really, with all the recipes and stuff. nice graphics. i'm officially a proud vegan.

my sickness is YOUR loss.

i'm drunk/ high from all that drugs. these are drugs in the form of gas. because i cannot take syrups. they creep me out. from childhood nightmares. those who were in mary's today would be so hypnotic. i hypnotize ppl with my sleepiness that radiates from my eyes and voice.

...

clearly i can hypnotize through my words too. considering you are already nodding off to sleep in the midst of all my robotic words.

if you're not, then you have a problem. my problem is insomnia. but i've found the cure.

if you would let me, im gonna go sleep in the tub now. in true kyle style.

Currently Listening:
Playing the Angel
by Depeche Mode
Release date: By October 17th, 2006

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Give me some of that stuff (Wooooh)

We are all on DRUGS. never has it been more true.

i've been thinking of something smart to say here but well, im in a PENCIL SKIRT.
& the song's equally as distracting because it's so irresistable. Miss Idiot Magnet (i would like to think I'VE christened her the title but yeah) the idiot magnet told me sum freaky stuff today. & oh, havent u heard? Denice got into a FREAK ACCIDENT & the dude just SOLD my ticket OFF!! What ticket, u ask? well, it's obscene. im gonna throw up.

I AM NOT MAKING SENSE. i will screeam. let's change the subject.

I had a lil ME time 2day. Guess wat i did? Slouch in the couch, eat leftover pasta in the most unexotic pair of pants with lots of ice cream & chocs (vegan, of course!) Then i had trilogies of trilogies. I call them CLASSICS. c'mon, who can deny the Keanu Reeves? *sighs*

so, i watched The Matrix (this was ancient, they didnt have a DTS version that time, so Dolby was kinda... HBO) X-Men & LOTR!

All of them were trilogies. i couldnt find the 2nd part of matrix so i watched xmen then i realised xmen2 wasnt there too. so i took the FOTR out. the last one really brings back the memories. I thought abt how stupid & obsessed i was. It's almost as stupid as the next thing im gonna lament abt.

adam is getting MARRIED. i would love to scream here. but i noe my voice wouldnt be as loud as the faction so... AwFuckIt. AAAAAHHHHHH!!! tho, they're really cute together. tasha told me she's now living in texas.. sum sub-urb of Austin. My GAWD. how close were they? my adam. chauntelle's really small-town. Don't trash me for that comment. Matt Rubano said this:
Is it true that Adam can perform ALL the postions in the Kama Sutra? (Contrary to popular belief I have never had sex with Adam, but i have great faith in his flexibility) trash HiM. for his sense of humor. ahahahaha.

neways, i wanna get out of this PENCIL skirt & get sum sleep for i am on my way to the free world. i talk a bunch of crap to others but YOU will understand.

Currently Listening :
Room Noises
by Eisley
Release date: By 8 February 2005

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Xtre! Xtre! Xtre!

Needles! The horror.

I hate jabs. people who don't feel the pain are not HUMAN. seriously.

This is so ironic, me being the one with 2 tatts already.
Mum actually suggested yoga. In over her head.
I'm so hungry, but I'm happy. Not cranky.. XD I like the feeling of awaitingThurs & Fri nights.

Did i mention how Yewows is such a sweetie??
Got me another pair of shades. Bulgari, no less! Looks almost like the one Davey always sports. Diamond-studded at the side. Quite the pleaser!

I wanna stop going 2 skool. But that's unlikely to happen. Us, being stuck in a rut we choose to be in. K, that did not make any sense but yeah, whatever.

Hersheys! mmm.. got the projects points! nadrah? dunno. well yeah she was reli nice. just don't shoot me for saying this. i am so so hungry. it's not like i didnt eat. i ate a bunch of nonsense earlier in the morn in class, & then b4 recess sum kisses rite in front of sum retard of a teacher(i.e.the counsellor) & then toast for lunch & then more kisses during hse practise and more AFTER. then vegan buns when i came home. im such a slut for vegan buns.
barely gave those lil things a chance.

Laundry Bar later. Sucky band. Dreading the listen but can hardly wait the looking.

MUSE. I'M sought after. muahahahaha

Ju-Li & DD. Very sane people. Denise? No sane. Declined MUSE!
I've got this stupid song stuck in my head.
'Joseph Smith is dumb-dumb-dumb-dumb-dumb.'

Famished.

Currently Listening :

Fifteen
by Buckcherry
Release date: By 11 April 2006

Sunday, February 04, 2007

And ooh la, the world just chewed her up and spat her out

Dave de Sylvia, me lovies you. Respect the man: Spat out Plath!

The MAN himself gave me tickets to watch them live! It's amazing enough that he actually managed to bring them here, but give the kid the big break? NO WAY!
This is no black tie party, but Shelby insisted we put on our face. So afta putting on all that make up, went to watch their kickarse VIRGIN performance. how can it be a VIRGIN performance & kick-arse at the same time? L8r that nite too, mynameischan & kat gave me good news in the form of laughter. My first reaction? Scream. Second? Call my mom. I know, i'm such a sweetie.

Drunkards. Thank god parents werent there to see them. "fucking" chimneys were there too. more than anything, i hate chimneys. they're so disgustingly ignorant of whatever they're ingnorant abt. I'm not here to tell u what u already know sub-consiously.
If it werent for the live band, i wouldnt be hanging around that place (duh.) it seems like the social scene over there is mostly going out to bars, which i don't think is much different than anywhere else in the world, but there's not really much going on other than that. & i have absolutely no interest in going out at night and sitting at a bar, especially since i have nothing to do, other than asphyxiate on smoke and watch people get wasted.
Besides the fact that I'm actually under-age, and going there with you would be soso illegal?!

Anywho, today was mostly just abt changing tops & getting out of them, (eeks) afta s.Pyramid, (b4 2day i would have another eeks in place for this, u noe how i feel about d place.) intentionally wetting my tshirt & then wearing the tank i just bought, then really getting liquid on my boobs & changing into d aforementioned tee. I don't actually mind wearing it again coz it's just mineral water frm my own bottle. So all that left me going home braless & HIGH.
Not at all an uneventful sat nite.

BUT, it wasn't as crazy as friday night. working my ass off was so worth it. They sold out! My eyes werent tortured to see such things like coke sniffing & real weed being passed around (k, i've never seen any of those here, coz HE is such a good manager. Not kissing up k.)

oh yeah, i officially did ICE-skating. (ks, b4 you tell me to convert completely into a "fucking conformist"> it was fun. especially falling flat on my butt. a few alan guys were so onto my fren.. dis guy (i noe him as the man in dark blue shirt) was pretending to teach me & all that but constantly checkin out the aforementioned. Freaky! Thank goodneess for denise tho, she completely saved me frm my biggest horror: falling flat on my face. lm(sore)ao!

Despite the fact that i only had one hour of sleep, i was wide awake. Thank God NatM isn't stupid or boring. You know how sluggish i become once any slight hint of sleepiness come in2 mind..

On a completely diffrnt mood/topic, muse concert tickets! Anyone?

Mackey's going 4 summersonic! I so want to go... But the festival's in l8 summer, which means too close to the annoying lil thing called the PMR. Sighs.

So dad took me & my wet ass (after pyramid, xh being a pain. i want to go to whereever denise said they sold pirated btees!) for dinner at sum crappy restaurant that didnt lemme in coz was wearing tank & jeans & sneakers (an old 1 at that!) people in front took pics of me in polaroid & showed the even crappier manager. The dude allwed thanks to my cute lil pose AND my dad, of course. We're such frequent customers those dudes didnt even give me THE eye when i walked into the lounge. So ironic coz sometimes i play bouncer too, wif paulie & smithie. The SWEETEST ppl. Giving them a shoutout here is more than appropriate. XD

before i leave, ppl go to STREET LIFE EXPOSe! Lestat's be there & i'll be helping. Aud & i have been promoting tes 4 d past year & a half now. It betta be worth it!

Currently listening :
Inside In/Inside Out
by The Kooks
Release date: By 3 October 2006